Then Came da’ Internet

Then there was this thing called the internet! wow………..This is an awesome landmark lol…

I now have 900 posts an all on one web page imagine that…IT JEST GOES ON AN ON AN ON AN ON LOL… LoL….

so becomes another long article by the Q…read it er not have a splendid day! Er eve’ dependin’ on what part of the world ya reside upon 🙂 ………. 🙂

Than there was the intranet…er internet! Er what ..oh ic …THE WEB!



and the whole world changed overnight, has been quite a journey for all those old enuff to know…an remember the days of the black an white tv an tv antennas strung out all over the world on everyone’s houses…I saw it coming in the back of my mind an i did not invest? well got to let that go now…an let all the investments that i did have once upon a time also go..the successess that became a failure.
My problem is i out spend myself…. i was taught to do that ever since a kid…ok heres how the system ya borrow… got my furst real bank loan when i was like 13 an i was off an running lol…FOR MY FURST CAR A VOLKSWAGEN BUG I GOT FOR 400 BUCKS.
well many years later an i sit here an type as fast as i can think…but i do cheat i lewk at the keys…so anyhow..a lot of my errors in language that have become part of my particular language ..the language of the twisted Q well, comes frum where the keys are on the keyboard an jest went frum there once upon a
Back to that! yep ; so go with the flow..what a hard thing to do in todays fast paced werld, is amazing at how fast everything really does go…
Back; to the point …this internet thing, well is pert amazing thing that has happened in my lifetime an changed everything i ever thought bout destiny time an space so many many ways…

Projekts galore but lewk at da happy place without boundries 🙂

The internet has brought me multitudes of acquaintances – good – bad – indifferent – ugly- an beautiful also; have quite a variety of people I would have never met without the net.
Because of the net i have had both good an bad things happen over the years…lol i owned a couple of domain names once upon a time that i gave up an well, years later became a hit. So ya never know..i had no clue simple words like that would make me rich?..well live an learn? i’m the kind of learn by fail a lot…is how i got to be good at riding my bike etc etc an flying etc etc is by failing, when ya do ya remember not to do that again an move forward without hesitation to get a better grip on whatevr it is ya are doin’….point is sumtimes repetition is is best left alone, thata way ya don’t keep learnin’ the wrong things over an over ? right, well an old man jimmy weldon once told me that ..(he was the voice of the little yeller duck once upon a time in cartoons, yaky-do-little, the duck that couldn’t find his mama:)  he used to give motivational speeches at seminars etc etc……anyhow. he said..move forward without hesitation…was his motto an also now mine to this very day…on the side cover of my motorcycle in chinese LOL the characters are kewl lewkin what can i means moving forward without hesitation!…an the other side cover on the other side means infinity!….
Anyhow ..the internet has taken me to far lands, taken me to peru a few years back…an thats when i guess ya would say i found MYSELf an found out who i really was, an has ben a long journey evr since to try to heal the past in my body, havin a hard time with the pkd thing though it is hereditary an in the genetics,,,,an well is a terminal disease, an i have had a hard time coming to grips with that a lot over the past few years what it is…life is terminal indeed…I jest want to extend mine a bit! Is all!
Anyhow The point of this blog is that i would not even be sitting right where i am right now if not for the internet! Dr. Royal Rife….In so many many ways it changed my destiny an fates etc etc …an changed my life, also has extended it …Because, is because of this internet thing well, I have met a person that well, helps me emotionally an spiritually to stay alive an gives me something to look forward to every day…so for that I thank the internet…an pomp an circumstance an my higher power knowing what is right an correct an somehow sending me to this person….is perty amazing how the connections have happened over the years indeed because of this thing called the INTERNET or INTRANET! Q is ❤ 🙂  In love again because of he internet!…. 🙂

Anyhow right now, it appears it’s a rigged system to make evry0ne blame it on themselves an be in fear it is i tell ya…why that is i am not sure but is very prevalent in this werld we live in…so may thieves an liars etc etc…ya don’t really know who ya can trust these days…so many scams an versions of scams for $ also an so many people getting ripped off all the time cuz they are too dumb to know any better sorry to say but that is a fact…Phishing scams are the werst an people have to be very aware of that an malware also…viruses not so much anymore though….my rule there is if ya don’t want the virus don’t invite it in …Like the damn pneumonia shot they gave me that gave me the shit wtf?….an they want to give me a flu shot! lol…yeah lets see how tough ya are bud..well, it would prolly kill a guy like me now. So flu shots out of the question for this guy!

Back to the internet!….when the human mind catches up with quantum teck…then is when we will see lotsa overnight changes also, an that is not to distant in the future, as the Q here does know The matrix of the mind is pert much unexplored by most people! true story…how many people do u know are travelers, an play with in that sphere called the matrix – an yes very similar to the movies version!….So anyhow…thanks to the internet an Dr.Royal rife…i am here today to be able to type whatver it is i am about to type to ya here!… whats really weird bout it is in the end its so much about just remaining on the right frequency range for that which one is doing in life to make it happen….Survival for a while longer is my key as of late; although i know my time is limited if i do not get on dialysis soon and of also get a new used kidney soon also…any way i lewk at it i am a goner soon enuff…An well I love lIfe an Love who i have become also…cept for this dis-ease PKD..totally sucks…very few readers know what i am talking bout cuz it is a rare renal disease…but is horrendously painful …an not a fun way to pass the time after ur 45 er so….by the time ur 60 like me it has either kicked ur ass or ur dead, unless ya are on dialysis..or got a new kidney : an that might give me another 10 er so if i am lucky enuff 🙂
So; Thats totally amazing to me how destiny an time bends an things that were or could have been are not etc etc…i could write a book of stories bout how one drunk night changed the destiny an fate of everything that ever happened to me since, wow…but it did…an how being late by one minute changed everything once upon a time, or bout how being in the wrong place at the wrong time a lot gets one in trouble, another book to write there lol…i could spend the next 20 writing for fun i do so believe if the H.P. will jest allow that to happen…..

so i do not know how it will all come about really….lucky i am only moderately thousands in debt an owe less than 20, grand on my house! yeahaa…hoping i live to see the day when i get it paid off!.my mortgage..jeez..(Mortgage = death note) yep I guess huh!.is a struggle every month with this PKD thing going on now ….It has been like i have had the flu bout every 2 weeks for the past 7 er 8 years solid..truly sucks …comes an goes ya have ur good days an ya have ur bad….is not a fun cycle to get wrapped up in but is what it is…cuz the kidneys do not filter properly…well my creatinine level is 8.0 now has doubled in the last year an they usually have ya on dialysis before it gets to the point mine is at now….i am poisoned pert bad! so to speak…trying to keep it as clear as possible i am…wish i could jest become where i could live on water an air alone that’d be cool…but won’t happen….anyhow off subjekt now…is easy to do …but back to the point is what i hope to get or acquire because of the internet! who knows might even be a new kidney!….so only time will tell….
Just to keep my friends round the world bout 6 weeks later they can start dialysis to get my systems cleaned up….not sure how i am going to handle it financially to drive to durango 60 miles away 3 times a week for the next 6 months er what not without the income to support that!? so…………….don’t have a clue what the future will behold …but do know i am gettin tired of typing this an ur prolly gettin’ tired of readin’ me today if u subscribe to me by mail sorry for the long post-it…but i’m not really…..sorry is such a dreadful word ain’t it yep…got to stop using it…i do!

Anyhow grateful i do have readers that will read a post-it like this anyone with any great ideas for my continued existence on this planet please let me know…..

other than that take care allz.good night or good day wherever ya might be on this planet of ours!..


Brought 2 u by da’ Quantum Quarked one Q

aka mike in colorful colorado!…that is when the snow melts.jeezzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Common Drugs, including Benadryl and Xanax, cause Brain Atrophy and increase the Risk of Alzheimers and Dementia

Just say no to Big Pharma wierd drugs!

Cannabis an a little bita clean opiates w/out additives does da twick fer me …well, dats me! is wat it is!.

livin in dis’ werld of pain an pharma- cology…



A group of common drugs used to treat allergies and other chronic health issues increase the risk of Alzheimers and dementia, according to a new study by the University of Indiana School of Medicine. The study also found that these drugs reduce the overall size of the brain as well as its metabolism if taken regularly. The drugs, known collectively as anticholinergics, are commonly prescribed for allergies, insomnia, hypertension, cardiac problems, and depression among others. Some of the most well-known brands in the US include Xanax, Zyrtec, Valium, Wellbutrin, Benadryl, Dramamine, Paxil, and Histex. You can see a comprehensive list of anticholinergic drugs implicated in this study by clicking here.

This class of drugs blocks acetylcholine in the brain, an important neurotransmitter vital to normal brain function. In people with Alzheimers, there is always a lack of this neurotransmitter and, according to this study and others, these drugs worsen the condition or can provoke it. However, this study is not the first to find problems with anticholinergic drugs. A study in 2013 found that people who take these types of drugs showed a significant reduction in cognitive ability. Their risk of contracting Alzheimers also increased by more than 60%.

This new study from the University of Indiana was the first to investigate the direct impact of these drugs on the human brain. 451 adults between 70 and 75 years old participated in the study and were all given MRIs in order to see the changes in the brain over time. They were also all given different tests of memory and cognition. The group that took these drugs for 2.5 years showed a significant decrease in brain size compared to their condition before the study began. A decrease in brain size and a reduction in brain metabolism became evident after only 2 months of regular use. They also received worse scores on the tests compared to the people who did not take anticholinergic drugs over the course of the study.

Yet, the problem with these studies is that they only focus on the elderly.

Many of these drugs are approved for the use of children and teenagers, whose brains are still developing. A lack of Acetylcholine, the neurotransmitter blocked by these drugs, can cause mood swings, attention deficit, and memory problems in children. It’s very possible that the widespread use of these drugs could be to blame for increases in the diagnoses of ADD and similar disorders in children. Could these drugs also be shrinking their brains and causing permanent damage? What other effects could these drugs have on a developing brain? Unfortunately, no one knows as no studies currently exist. However, these studies have definitively shown that these drugs damage the human brain and should be removed from the market or, at the very least, come with warnings on the box. If you or someone you know is taking any type of anticholinergic drug, you should consider talking with your doctor or naturopath and looking for an alternative that won’t shrink your brain.

Source: Common Drugs, including Benadryl and Xanax, cause Brain Atrophy and increase the Risk of Alzheimers and Dementia

Sept 14, 2016

Ur Funny One 🙂 fer da’ day frum Q since dat’ article wasn’t dat’ funny!

…Reminder: Knowledge is Power! well, 2 some degree anyhew 🙂 adios frum da’ Q for da’ Sunday afternoon…



believe it er not

Chronically Speaking

Stayin’ Grounded when Lightnin’ Strikes in da’ Mind

The art of awakening…or waking up should i say!?


Stayin Grounded is important when lightnin storms inside da’ mind!

AN STAYIN’ GROUNDED when Lightnin strikes! in da’ mind!… well,
when overwhelmed, sumtimes life being difficult, so it becomes life in the now.

With every new strike!…
to integrate the past into the future truly steals frum the now,,
challenges are inseparable frum being here in dis werld,,,
but do we have to exist in our past any more?
does living in the past help today?
well, the BAD” past i have not forgiven an released…comes back whenever i focus on da’ past! so cure 2 dat is every time a negative or “BAD” memory comes up i must forgive an forget it so it don’t get in my way of today an the future! an make irrational decisions…etc etc..every time i i don’t dive a lot anymore…Not seeking the “Bad” stuff anyhow…it is senseless torture for one to let all the strikes frum the past hiot on an hurt on today an tomorrow as a result also!

well to the analytical judge,,elemental. an mentally finding meaning in- an deccerning way is important at this juncture in life..or i fail an go backwards in time! Simply Said! > , the past well, does not help the future….Not the bad parts anyhow, ones got to take the good an forgive da’ da’ past! an move on…

Keen Perception is the key to this new reality!
Even when lightnin’ strikes again an again!
An, well Not miss-percieving what someone is talking bout is what it is all bout anyhew right….unless they are talkin’ bout something u do not agree with…well, some people don’t wish to be any part of it, because of judgements; mostly false frum the past perceptions that brought them to this point in life in the furst place,.still wit me?? Well, when Lightnin’ strikes….an one is woken up so to say or shocked into a new perception of reality, well at that point in time life can change for the better! sumtimes it takes lightnin’ to strike though an disas’ter or close happen to make that a possibility!…so as the synapses in ur brain strike away, imagine thousands of thousands of little lightnin strike within da brain!


to awaken the mind to anew day an a new reality to be held.tomorrow .
Maybe! well who knows.can only werk on it one day at a time as time see if the dreams can become reality.:)
some say well, Q u are jest to hard to some say well, Q> i can’t subscribe to what ya gots to say,well, so be it! is what it is to me..! 🙂
well, with many people it’s very simple…its the receiver thats messed up, the receiver of signals of fight or flight embedded in da’ ol brain coming to the surface so often it is….when fear is embedded in ones soul a thought can be a scary thought when it is really not…so miss interpretation is summoned upon the mind when that happens sumtimes….
there are as many different ways as there are people in a way but in the end the results are usually very similar…an the learning curve is pert much the same…
So, simply said> time is irrelevant when one is able to step back an forth frum the days of the future past rapidly as fast as lightnin’ & without judgement but jest using discernment to gather the conscious action to be taken in the future!…or even the NOW! …Comprende’
~ Q ~

PS: every one has a bottom…but only that person knows when they reach it…some peoples bottoms are deeper than others……some have more tapes frum the past to unreel to get it together for today an tomorrow…so they are not there to bother them anynmore….an forgiveness is the ONLY KEY HERE!..resentments are killers i tell ya!…an that well
an next time lightning strikes the heart an soul with things frum the past..forgive them an move on…instead of trying to escape em….without forgiveness there is no escape…Believe it er not!……will be 20 years alcohol free here next year…so i do have some sort of clue as to what i am speakin about.take care everyone

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Elderly Man with Terminal Cancer Walks Out of Hospice after Treatment with Cannabis Oil – Healthy Holistic Living

reprinted frum >


“After nine months of taking two different forms of cannabis oil, one, a cannabis capsule infused with organic coconut oil around 10:30am and high THC oil about an hour before bed, dad was given the life changing report, “No evidence of recurrent disease”.” [2]
– Corinne Malanca (Stan and Barb Rutner’s daughter)

Stan Found Cannabis after Chemo and Radiation Almost Killed Him

The trillion dollar burn, cut, poison, Cancer Industrial Complex boldly proclaims that chemotherapy and radiation routinely save lives – that their toxic interventions boost long-term survival rates and the biggest lie of all: chemo and radiation exclusively target cancerous cells and leave healthy cells alone.

All these statements by the cancer industry are patently false. Poison is poison; it kills indiscriminately. Chemo and radiation are poisons posing as medicine. In fact, mainstream cancer “treatment” is the leading cause of secondary cancers.

Dave Mihalovic a Naturopathic Doctor who specializes in vaccine research, cancer prevention and a holistic approach to cancer treatment stated:

No chemotherapy drug has ever actually cured or resolved the underlying causes of cancer. Even what mainstream medicine considers “successful” chemotherapy treatments are only managing symptoms, usually at the cost of interfering with other precious physiological functions in patients that will cause side effects down the road.” [1]

Ironically, when chemo is killing cancer cells, it’s also stimulating healthy cells to produce a protein that supports tumor growth and makes the cells resistant to further cancer treatment.

Researchers Discover One of the Ways Chemo Enhances Cancer Growth

“The scientists found that healthy cells damaged by chemotherapy secreted more of a protein called WNT16B which boosts cancer cell survival.

“The increase in WNT16B was completely unexpected,” study co-author Peter Nelson of the Fred Hutchinson Cancer Research Center in Seattle told AFP.

The protein was taken up by tumor cells neighboring the damaged cells.
“WNT16B, when secreted, would interact with nearby tumor cells and cause them to grow, invade, and importantly, resist subsequent therapy,” said Nelson.

In cancer treatment, tumors often respond well initially, followed by rapid regrowth and then resistance to further chemotherapy.” [1]

The Stan Rutner Story


Stan and Barbara Rutner are a devoted, couple who have been together 59 years. They both have hard-won experience battling cancer. Roughly 25 years ago, Stan, a retired dentist with a lucrative mini-storage business was diagnosed with non-Hodgkin lymphoma, while Barb had successfully battled breast cancer twice. Stan remembers:”I just thought I had a cold, flu, type thing. That was it . . . I wasn’t thinking cancer at all.” [3]

After six months of aggressive, standard allopathic, treatment, Stan’s cancer was in remission – that was back in 1989. Meanwhile, Stan had moved on with his life; his bout with cancer faded into the deep dark recesses of his memory. Of course, Stan didn’t expect after all those years of remission he’d be fighting cancer again in 2011 but as mentioned above that’s not uncommon for those who undergo conventional cancer treatment. His initial symptom this time was a persistent cough, otherwise he seemed fine.

Somewhat concerned he made a doctor’s appointment. The initial diagnosis was early stage pneumonia. The doctor noted that there were some unusual looking spots on his lungs that needed follow-up, after the pneumonia had cleared. Numerous tests later and revealed the “spots” were cancerous nodes in the lungs. But there’s more. Stan’s final diagnosis: Stage 4 Lung Cancer with Metastasis to the Brain. Stan recalled how his doctor broke the news, ‘You’re in deep shit.’ Stan explained. “Yeah, he didn’t sugar coat it at all.” But it gets worse much worse. Down the road doctors discovered that the cancer had metastasized to his brain. [3]

Stan’s Health and Quality of life Rapidity Declined

This time, the chemotherapy and radiation, really took a heavy toll on Stan. Shortly after treatment began [march-April of 2012] Stan was plagued with debilitating fatigue, wasting away, weight loss and chronic nausea. Not a pretty picture especially for someone pushing 80.

Barb Rutner: “After that he was wiped out. He was very thin. So we finished radiation to his brain on June 25, and on July 13 he entered the hospital for the first time with radiation pneumonitis (inflammation of the lungs due to radiation therapy), so pneumonia. There were three hospital visits during that time, and on the third they kept him for a week and started him on oxygen 24/7. And then he went into palliative care.” [3]

Stan’s doctors gave him only weeks to live and ordered him to hospice, which he entered on August 12, 2011

The Rutners also used alternative treatments to ease Stan’s suffering and perhaps stall his “inevitable” death sentence. Stan tried Reiki energy treatments and acupuncture. He even attempted creative visualization but it wasn’t his thing and it didn’t really help him, although Barb had success with it when she was fighting breast cancer. Stan’s downward spiral continued unabated and time was running out. That’s when Corrine – Stan and Barb’s daughter and Corinne’s soon to be husband, John Malanca started researching cannabis as a possible treatment option for Stan.


Barb explains: “Corinne and John were becoming interested in medicinal marijuana but we were concerned that Stan was wasting away. He had lost so much weight and so we were anxious to get his appetite improved and help him with the nausea. So Corinne suggested daytime cannabis capsule infused with coconut oil; they’re yellow capsules that he started taking. He started taking those in early November of 2011 and in the beginning, he took about a third of a capsule in the morning, and it was about a week or two later that he was able to give up the extra oxygen that he had had 24/7.”[3]

Stan was ready to try cannabis – he realized better than anyone else that he had nothing to lose and maybe a lot to gain.
Stan stated: “No hesitation at all. Here I’m dying and getting nothing to change the course of things and so this thing has a pretty good track record in—what do you call it—in a non-medical world, so hey let’s try it. Got nothing to lose.” [3]

Stan’s Amazing Turnaround

Bingo! Within a couple of weeks of starting cannabis, Stan’s condition was improving in all ways. He started gaining weight, his sleep improved, he was regaining his strength. Eventually he ditched his walker, dumped his oxygen and started exercise classes. Barb described his progress as remarkable.

After several months of Cannabis Stan decided to get an MRI to check his progress

Barb: “On January 27, 2013 we received the results of Stan’s brain MRI in an email from his oncologist, stating simply: “IMPRESSION: No evidence of recurrent disease.” The lung cancer that had metastasized to his brain in the summer of 2011 (and nearly taken his life) was GONE! The doctor calls him a miracle man. We are deeply grateful to his “team” of doctors, friends and family, but we’ll always believe that cannabis turned the tide.” [3]

Barb and Stan Rutner at their Daughter’s Wedding on September 21, 2013


Corinne and John Malanca on Their Wedding Day
“Dad never thought that he would make it to that day but low and behold, he continued on the Cannabis Oil and is STILL in remission!”- Corinne Malanca [2]




Paul Fassa is a contributing staff writer for His pet peeves are the Medical Mafia’s control over health and the food industry and government regulatory agencies’ corruption. Paul’s valiant contributions to the health movement and global paradigm shift are world renowned. Visit his blog by following this link and follow him on Twitter here.


Republished from with permission

Source: Elderly Man with Terminal Cancer Walks Out of Hospice after Treatment with Cannabis Oil – Healthy Holistic Living


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INvisible Ilnesses… are More than a PAIN!….NOT “FUN!”

Had a post all ready bout people that are positively negative but poof an it went bye-bye. so u get this one instead!


INvisible Ilnesses.……….. are More than a PAIN!….NOT “FUN!”
Some times for the person with an invisible illness like mine, well, to write or talk bout it is not ordinary!… To deny that it exists sumtimes is the only way to exist with it! whatevr type of Invisible illness it might be. Fact is 9 out of 10 people on the planet do not have any idea what u are talking bout an 8 out of 10 simply do not care 😦 ..Sad but true…Most will not even read all the werds in a long blog like this to even understand what is being shared!
For many of those who read my blog werld will jest think i am on my soapbox of self pity an self derived problems, they can believe what they want now…judge me in thier own life of health! well, not be affected by anything i think or say!….blowing it off as my ego or my “little boy who cried wolf” syndrum, which is definitely not the case!….Jest ask robin williams how it feels to be the one that has to be HAPPILY in PAIN! an put on a mask evry day or minute one steps out into the werld an tries to relate! Being of service to others is a big help in helping with the pains, but does not make it go away!… jest gives one some sense of worth when they know every minute thay are going downhill!
If u are one of those that suffer? frum invisible dis-ease of any kind then u know what i am talking bout…Jest Because: one might not LOOK SICK ? well, the general assumtion is that one is jest fine…an that is not the case!
But, waking up physically sick or in pain 5 out of 7 days a week totally sucks an after a few years truly gets to a human spirit, believe me I KNOW…oh an they call me a know it ALL? or “THE KING OF PAIN!” 😦 What a JOKE: if i knew it all i could FIX the invisible pains i have, wouldn’t that be the case now huh!?
Well, Not the case…am lucky to be alive really, an well, My Grattitude an love for myself an others is what keeps me alive more than anything else. Besides attempting to get the body to operate on the correct FREQUENCY!….with the rife machine an human energy field werk!
I can be eternally thankful for the science of Bio_Energetic healing an the unPROVEN? science of HANDS ON HEALING! These 2 things have kept me alive to really truly see how bad things can really get! I wake up in the morning, sumtimes, feel as though i have the FLU: other times Feel like i Had got run over by a truck in my dreams!…Other times i wake up more tired than when i went to bed….My mind wants to go outside an do something “FUN” but well.can’t seem to put together the energy to do that all the time…Many times i spend 1/2 an hour er more jest being sick…sick to the point i am dizzy, sweating an vomiting over an over till i feel like i am going to die, feel like a child that has the flu uncontrollaby an can’t get a grip on it. After my 1/2 hour battle over FLULIKE symptoms…i go through a withdrawal of sorts, become chronically fatigued to the point where jest sitting here like this typing on my keyboard, makes me both HURT an Then depressed because of the HURT also…The doctors say MIND OVER MATTER NOW! i try an do as much as i can to do jest that….Until i have to take at least 5mgrams of oxycodone…Sumtimes more, over the next half hour or so i start to feel better an sumtimes not…Ya never know how its going to turn out really!…Yeah : lewk in the mirror an all seems OK, Right…well, not! The best way to deal with the pain in the end a lot is to jest smoke a bowl an go lay down again….Believe it er not i feel much batter afterwards….At least MY MIND has changed bout it!…so, yeas MIND OVER MATTER does werk a lot but not all the time…so i go on with my daily “routine” an know that “in the back of my mind” well, my body is still in pain!…an as soon as i focus on that or realize it well, things can go downhill frum there relatively easy! Ah but big breaths.right…….well, sometimes nothing helps but complete exapism frum how one feels!….is why they had me on Morphine for a while, but well a temporary cure it is in the end also!,,,,Morphine jest makes one internally sick an simply CRAZY in the end..cause nightmares an more convulsive activity in the end..Kinna like Booze! er jest like taking too much heroin..or pain killers…
So? what does one do….if they are like me or many others with pkd or fibromalgia or muscle pains or digenerative disk disease or brain pains or body aches that are not “NORMAL” but caused by a DIS-ease or imbalance of the integral system of our energy field an human bodies?

I wish it were as simple as a toothache where in the end ya can jest opull the ttoth an the pain goes away….well ya jest can’t pull the organs that are effected by this disease! or one would die, is all there is to it…so meanwhile one lives in INVISIBLE PAIN… people around ya ..sumtimes – the ones that notice..ask? wow whats wrong? with you?…when ur on the verge of crying 90% of the day. Can’t even bend over an tie shoelaces for years without hurting! ..Having to put on a mask in a way an “FAKE IT TILL ONE MAKES IT’ seems to become the normal way, even going to the store an doing shopping sumtimes becomes more of a challenge than a pain, trying to hold it all inside so no one sees how ya feel, using the shopping cart as a crutch to get round with an wear a hat a lot an lewk down quite a bit to hide the eventfull, ever flowing rush of tears! Sumtimes there is more pain in trying to be normal than jest crying it out!..but ya can’t be doing that in publik right…?
Because of the size of my kidneys an other organs that have growd due to this disease, i have a simulated “MORNING SICKNESS’ quite often. Like having a couple of babies inside pushing on all the organs it is…..after eating or when i wake up a lot!…After SWEATING that out an vomiting ur life away ; well, one feels half normal for a few hours…is part of the daily routine for many years now for me here…
To attempt to try to get someone to realize how much pain ya are in is FUTILE! furst you don’t look sick, so ya can’t possibly be sick right..well, how so very wrong they are the people that think that, to try to convince social security disability that i could not perform normally any more took lotsa years of off an on pains, loosing jobs over it etc visits galore!.not being able to even wake up being able to depend on being well enuff to werk? 😦 …then on top of that thay can’t understand how an why one would be depressed? when ya lewk so healthy huh!?….An in the end that jest makes on more depressed!? 😦 …WTF? a living dichitomy a lot it is! is what i know at this point!
Not being able to do the things which are enjoyable seems to make the depression even stronger! ya feel helpless an useless to even ur self…Ridiculed by family an friends for NOT BEING ABLE TO ” jest makes the depression feel deeper than ever also..they have no clue what it is to be in PAIN, And think it is SILLY for U to be so!?….
The word of the week for the wordpress weekly photo challenge is “FUN” an well, is “fun” mentally going an lewking at all the pics of people having FUN!..having to put aside any self pity for myself not being able to go out an have that same fun anymore! I used to think of my work as FUN! an tried to have FUN in everything i evr did, even if it was something i did not wish to do..was a way to over come the burden of doing those not so “fun” things…Mind over matter right…..positive energy over the bad right!!!!! well, it only goes so far when one is in pain 24/7…. .
Have ya ever had the feelin ya were like a fly in a glass bottle trying to find a way out!? knowing u can see the other side, an know where ya want to go – but not being able to get out! continually trying in a myriad of ways to get free, banging ur way against the glass every time ya think ya see a hole to fly out of!…then ya bounce off an right back into the bottle – not being able to get out!
Well, bones disintegrating, an nerves bundling up 😦 …an tightness in the field! eventually closes down on oneself, is my experience as time rolls on here…knowing my time is limited! i do every minute of evry day! is bout the way it is…so inspired to write this because the werd of the week was “FUN” well? is not so fun!..when the only real FUN one can have is in dreamland!……
So – at the funeral of mr. mikey here if they have one for me? well,? will they say i was a guy who liked to have fun..or will they say ..lucky him he is no longer in pain that caused his fun to not be fun!?
Will they even understand that my blog werld an my life the last few years was jest attempting to overide the pain with somethin i called fun!…trying an attempting to teach others what i have learned in life as to be the most valuable lessons..has been what it has been bout the last few years!…mentally that has been !FUN! yes indeed!
when i am not stranded by being broke paying for all that this has cost me, well ever now an again i can go fly or ride my bike or even take a hike,,,{still in pain} an call it fun! is the best temporary release i can get! to



A lot of people with fibromyalgia PKD digenerative disk disease! and chronic fatigue syndrome,  or any one of dozens of types of cancer an auto imune diseases have days where we can hardly do anything, whether it’s because we literally don’t have the energy to move, or whether activity causes searing pain that breaks us down physically and mentally. We never know when this might happen….sumtimes it comes on gradually an one can prepare for it other times it happens in an instant! an if ur in publik or around people well?
Then i get these notes an comments or texts? “WHATS WRONG WITH YOU?” AN WELL, THAT JEST MAKES ONE MORE DEPRESSED…wunderin what is truly wrong an why one can’t do a lot bout it…an why one has to jest accept the loosing cards dealt…an then go bout life one minute at a time till it gets better – hopefully!.an also i get the other side of the pic frum many…who don’t want to realize or accept the fact that i am in pain an they jest disconnect frum me or leave me be…so they do not have to be a part of it!..even though i attempt not to soapbox bout it, jest hanging round me for a few hours they realize i hurt an it bothers them too much to hang round me 😦 especially soul sensitive people yes indeed…. although ever now an again i come across a healer type of personality, who senses an feels what i do, most compassionate folks i have ever known on the planet!..they even tell me…it takes a lot out of them to even werk on me! an to attempt to transmute the self capturing negative energies an dispurse them!…Is almost like being poossessed by something ELSE? inside that cause havoc on the rest of my systems an body an life itself in the end!..
I very rarely talk bout my ETERNAL pains here! an what a pain in the body it is being alive…i enjoy the good things in life to much to jest give up an let one die! is bout the end of it here! is why i do what i do,,,keep on keepin on…put on the false front of being NORMAL AN HAPPY AN HEALTHY is all one can do…an give it every attempt an my best shot to show the doctors wrong etc etc… an heal the field so my body heals is the greatest thing i can do to over come these dis-eases that affect my field – my body – my life an ultimately my physical an mental health!
So…to those who read me that are in chronic pain…i can relate yes indeed!…I can only share a bit of my experience strength an hope to help u in ur individual situation…yes we are all different…but chronic PAIN still feels da’ SAME no matter who ya are! it is what it is…how one chooses to percieve it does make a difference…but if u have evr had the FLU or broken a bone! well u know the pain! an when that kind of pain persists 24/7 80% of ur weeks,,,well the other 20% trying an attempting to do thngs which are “FUN” is a hard thing to do!
So, off the soapbox now…after another morning an day of being sick – emotionally – physically an spiritually! All one can really do is Keep ON Keepin on …stay focused on the moment! move slowly an graceefully,,,with determination to kick the disease….an even laugh at things that are not so fun! cuz one truly realizes that being happy is the best ingredient goin to help keep one having fun! being positively positive..instead of positively negative! helps enourmously!
To have a bit of faith an determination that things will get better! is the only way one can truly lewk at things if they feel chronically ill or sick! the way i see it!…so no matter what till the day my body decides to get the best of me an the ego of pain wins over the mind! i shall have a mind to have as much fun as i possibly can! however i can…
I do know one thing for sure…getting drunk is not an option…nor drugging myself to death either! to excape my personal reality, is why i smoke my bud an move on ahead “ON DAY AT A TIME – SUMTIMEZ “ONE MINUTE @ A TIME” MYT QUEST IS NOT TO EXCAPE MY PERSONAL REALITY BUT ALL THE DIFFERENT I AM WANTING TO AN WISHING TO ALLOW MY PAINS TO BE LESSONS FOR THE FUTURE…WHATEVR THAT IS!! Maybe in my next life i wont carry this Disease to the future with me? who knows.all in the days of suffering frum INTERNAL INVISIBLE ILNESSES THAT CAUSE RADICAL PAIN!…


So: Things i believe One Should Do Every Day if u have PKD , degenerative bone disease. Fibromyalgia & Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
Take Your Medications & Supplements (if prescribed)
Eat Something Healthy (or drink at the very least)
Get Plenty of Serious Rest.
Exercise as much as one can: if Possible
Love & Laugh as much as possible!

Realize alcohol is not the answer!
Fight in a gewd way fer ur life – if ya can!

Accept it an take it responsibly without killin’ urself! over it!
Enjoin with all the gewd things one can while one can!


Is well, all i can say bout this subjekt today..for every day is a new day well, tomorrow jest might be a better day! so attempt to lewk forward to it with that in mind.  NO matta HOW MUCH ONE HURTZZZZZZ!


and also: remember If u suffer frum thingz such as i do jest remember one thing very simple to say but hard to realize.
“THIS TOO SHALL PASS!” jest like any storm should!

an life is only temporal truly..

it’s jest a matter of time what life turns into!

Back 2 Life with Rife!

Dr.Royal Rife: Cancer-Cure Genius Silenced by Medical Mafia..


“What if someone invented an electronic device that would destroy pathogens, bacteria, and even viruses with no toxic side effects? What if that same device could wipe out cancer by altering the cancer’s cellular environment or by killing cancer viruses with an electronic or ultra sonic beam? That was accomplished years ago. The researcher who invented and perfected this device had an odd name, Royal Raymond Rife. But his associates and colleagues knew him as Roy Rife.

How It Works (Basically)

 Imagine if minuscule pathogens had energy frequencies beyond the sonic range that, if induced, would cause the pathogen to implode or explode. This Rife called the Mortal Oscillatory Resonance or MOR. It is technology within the arena of energetic healing, but more in the western mode of challenging pathogens with technological machinery from outside. With a special microscope of his own making, Rife was able to observe and record the MOR of many pathogens.

 Instead of dealing with the vibrational field of the patient, or the patient’s chi energy, Rife used high frequency energies created by electronic machinery to alter both pathogens and their environments. The difference between Rife’s Ray Beam and common radiation therapy was that only those specific MOR frequencies of targeted microorganisms had negative responses. All other cells were left unharmed. This is the essence of Rife’s technology.

 Also included in his research was observing morphing pathogenic bacteria and viruses into different less destructive forms. He was among a growing number of microbiologists and researchers who had adopted Pleomorphism as an explanation of microorganism life. Pleomorphism posits that the life form of a pathogenic microbe alters, possibly many times.

 Rife also noticed corresponding changes in the tissue or blood environment of these morphing microorganisms. This led to the theory that the condition of the germs’ medium, i.e. the blood or tissue, was the cause of disease and not the germ. Rife did observe the pH changes in what is now called the field or terrain in the microorganism’s host environment as well as its association with bacterial/viral morphing.

 He considered that the field pH changes influenced the microorganisms morphing, causing them to become more pathogenic or more benign depending on the pH factor. This was the precursor to the field or terrain theory as a source of disease that many holistic healers now embrace over the germ theory. Rife was beginning to realize this in spite of being able to kill the germs of many diseases with his ray tube.”

..captions in espanol 🙂  an this video is 2 hours long..

Suppressed Cancer Cure – Royal Rife Documentary

the rise an fall of a scientific genius ..jest like tesla…whom could have changed the werld,,,,,,,,,but no.someone had to stop him.why????


Cure 4 Cancer Anyone

ur 20 pages away
an imagine this
Thousands only a few years ago
for the same tech
read the 20 links below